Cause all I say,

It doesn't matter anyway.

All I say,

It doesn't matter anyway.

I'm giving up,

So call my bluff.

Cause I just need to be reminded who I am.

I'm falling apart.

~matt nathanson...falling apart

...i pulled out the yellow flyer that i ever so strategically buried in my desk tonight...i pulled it out, unfolded it and sent a email to the contact person on it...

so the group is called: young adults with MS self help group...

i guess i am scared to go to a meeting or something and meet all these people who all have the same thing...i dont know if i wanna talk about it...a

as much as i wanna pretend that this is a nightmare and i will wake up back to normal, i cant and i hate that...

ugh...nights alone at school suck...i am sure i will regret pulling out the flyer in the morning...

i mean, self help...ugh..in like 10 years i will so need therapy because i may explode from all that is stuck in my head